i don't even want to post, but i'm an addict and addicts really want to do the things they say they don't...at least on some level.
it's why they're addicts.
so i had rice again, it's about 2 cups and it's 400 calories for all of it. 400 calories used to be something i had for a meal, but now it makes me gain weight. part of me thinks it's due to the restricting i did before and now my body's like "fuck that!", but i dunno. today is my last test day with rice, if i still gain, ill put it away in the cupboard and not touch it till i'm at least 250.
here's what i ate yesterday:
weigh in: 272.5
upon arriving home at like 4:30:
dinner(at around 7:30 when i normally eat at 6):
packet of rice 400
total calories consumed: 775
weigh in: 272.7
so i've had cantaloupe for breakfast (149) and i brought the rice for lunch (400) [thinking maybe it's because i ate it too late] and i'll have ither the left over soup for dinner or maybe just fruit, or possibly both. i dunno. i plan to consume around the same amount of calories in order to determine if i'm crazy or if it is the rice.
i'm also waiting impatiently for one of the blogs i follow to go under a fast or stringent diet of some variety and ask for ppl to join up and support each other.
i need some sort of plan, someone to talk to, someone who reads my blog, and has helpful things to say, someone who knows my weight, does judge(at least a little), but is pleased i'm putting forth the effort to change it.
if anyone's starting a crash diet and needs someone to back them, please tell me. id love to join.
best luck to all of you.