i should. i am fat.
life seems messy.
i guess i stayed away so long because life became placid, i became complacent.
complacency has lead me to weight gain. a lot of weight gain.
i wanted to start over but that seems stupid. i dunno. i miss blogging i miss the community...
im going to visit my best friend this weekend and we have a tendency to binge when we get together. the last time she visited me i told her i had been having disordered eating habits.. so maybe that will affect things..
when i come back i will have to figure things out.
i dont know. i dont think ana is coming back into my life. but for those of us who know my past, i have a tendency to get carried away.
i know that in my absence, my friends have left me...
i venture out alone in this one... maybe i'll get new ones.